POW!

If I told you a secret
You won't tell a soul
Will you hold it and keep it alive
Cause it's burning a hole
And I can't get to sleep
And I can't live alone in this lie
So look up

Take it away
Don't look da-da-da- down the mountain
If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return
Anyone, anything, anyhow

So take me don't leave me
Take me don't leave me
Baby, love will come through it's just waiting for you

Well I stand at the crossroads
Of highroads and lowroads
And I got a feeling it's right
If it's real what I'm feeling
There's no makebelieving
The sound of the wings
of the flight of a dove

Take it away
Don't look da-da-da down the mountain
If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return
anyone anything anyhow...

when someone says forever, how long is that true? should i believe it? should i still think it's valid? or was it just some word to make me feel on top of the world like usual? is there a limit to when that word is over? even if it was my fault? why do i keep getting stuck in the past? maybe it's because then was the best i've felt.

someone please tell me this makes sense.

thank you everyone for being alive.

you have to admit it's getting better, a little better all the time.

i'm going back to school on january 15th. alternative school. it's from 11:50 to 2:15. sweeeeet ass mothah fuckahs! i have my little interview thingy on monday. god, i cant believe it's saturday. i was just thinking, man that interview is like a week away. the days are flyyyyyying by. that's a good thing most definately. then hopefully april will come quickly because man-oh-man do i miss my man. (sorry, im a dork and i know it, and hopefully you all know it too) i slept for 11 hours last night. i'm getting sick. well i am sick. i had about a kazilllllllllion dreams because people kept calling me and it would ever so slightly wake me up. im glad im quitting smoking. i'm really doing a lot to better myself recently. like that, and i need to start eating better and exercising more. i want to make a blanket. what is the easiest/quickest way to do it? like...crotching (hahhaha, how do you spell crow-shay-ing), knitting, or what. i don't want to just sew 2 pieces of fleece together. i want it to be cooler than that. so if you know, please share!!! goodnight and sweet dreams.

<3

new years resolutions:

-keep it simple one day at a time
-quit smoking
-lose weight
-get into shape
-set priorities:
1. myself
2. education
3. friends/family
4. work
-focus on school work
-set goals daily
-be more open with my singing
-higher self-esteem
-drive less
-polute less
-recycle more
-don't dwell

i love you, and i'll miss you.

IT'S A WONDERFUL LIFE
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1)Where did you begin 2006?
the patterson's

2) What was your status by Valentine's Day?
taken by nick

3) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
partly. vhs.

4) How did you earn your money?
babysitting, fop, phil-b's, big wheel, kelsey's

5) Did you have to go to the hospital?
yes

6) Did you have any encounters with the police?
yes

7) Where did you go on the holidays?
thanksgiving, wheeler and merrillville

8) What did you purchase that was over 500?
nothing

9) Did you know anybody who got married?
not got married, but got engaged

10) Did you know anybody who passed away?
grandma gene

11) Have you run into anybody you left high school with?
everyone

12) Did you move anywhere?
schools

13) What sporting events did you go to?
uhm...none?

14) What concerts/shows did you go to?
just local shows

15) Are you registered to vote?
no

16) Who did you want to win Big Brother?
didnt want it

17) Where do you live now?
valpo

18) Describe your birthday.
haha, interesting

19) What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2006?
got expelled

20) What has been your favorite moment?
no idea

21) What's something you learned about yourself?
ha, lots

22) Any new additions to your family?
yes

23) What was your best month?
not sure..november, surprisingly?

24) What music will you remember 2006 by?
stupid annoying pop songs

25) Who has been your best drinking buddy?
...

26) Made new friends?
the best

27) Best new friend?
dave, judy

28) Favorite night out?
thanksgiving

29) Any regrets?
ha




[PEOPLE]
best friend(s): julie, jade, dave, judy
lost any friends: many many many
gained any friends: LOTS

[PLACES]
went out of the country: no
moved: nope
new school: kinda
how many times on an airplane: 4

[YOU]
have you changed: LOTS
new look: yeah
most depressed time this year: ...may, september

[LOVE]
did you fall in love: yes
did you get heartbroken: a bit
who was your summer love: drugs

[SEASONS]
favorite Season: spring, fall, winter
least favorite season: summer
good birthday: meh, yeah
any snow this year: not too much yet

[FINAL QUESTIONS]
snuck out: yes
kept your resolution: dont remember
got arrested: almost
drank alcohol: yes
kissed a boy: a few
got dumped: kinda
lost a family member: yes
got bad grades: yes
got a myspace: had it a while
kept a secret: yes
told a secret: yes
done something you totally regret: meh...

In 2006 I...
[X] broke a promise
[X] made a new best friend
[X] fallen in love
[X] fallen out of love
[X] been in over 2 relationships
[X] lied
[X] went behind your parents back
[X] cried over a broken heart
[X] disappointed someone close
[X] hid a secret
[X] pretended to be happy
[x] kissed in the rain
[ ] kissed on a first date
[ ] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[X] forgot your new years resolution
[X] met someone who changed my life
[x] met one of your idols
[X] changed your outlook on life
[X] sat home all day doing nothing
[X] pretended to be ill
[ ] left the country
[X] almost died
[X] given up something important to you
[X] broke something expensive
[X] learned something new about yourself
[X] tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it
[X] made a change in your life
[X] found out who your true friends were
[X] met great people
[X] snuck out of the house
[X] stayed up til sunrise
[ ] pigged out over the summer
[X] met someone from myspace in person
[X] cried over the silliest thing
[X] partied more than 5 times
[X] was never home on weekends
[x] got into a car accident
[x]found a person I never thought I'd become real good friends with
[X] had friends who were drifting away from me
[ ] had someone close to me die
[X]had a high cell phone bill
[ ] wasted most of my money on food
[ ] had a fist fight
[X] went to the beach
[ ] saw a celebrity
[X] gotten sick
[ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[X] had a wasted night
[X]became closer to a lot of people

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i'm watching al gore on oprah for global warming 101, it rocks.

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=ehmahlee


http://kevan.org/johari?name=ehmahlee

i love you. so much. you've affected my life in ways that you'll never know. like most things going on right now, this is absolutely amazing and it hasn't even been very long. i can NOT imagggiinne how insanely incredible it's going to be in the future. that's basically how everything is now. i've been so happy and realized so many things lately. i'm so aware. that's how i feel. very aware. and it hasn't even been very long. it's already paid off for all of the shit i went through. all of the pain, the memories, the fucked-up situations and things that i've done, the tears, and the shame. my life today is already worth what i went through. i cannot even begin to imagine how much change im about to go through. i cannot wait for the future, and i have never had that before. sure i've had good times in my life, but ive always been afraid of what's to come. i've always had fear of myself fucking something or someone up. ruining everything, because that's how it always seemed to be. i don't have that fear anymore. not that i don't have any fear about anything, but not about my future anymore. it's an amazing feeling. i'm overwhelmed with the change and gratitude i have now. i'm greatful for things that i never even realized i had. i know that i have rough roads ahead of me (especially december 28), but i'm ready. and now i have hope and faith that i can get through it. and i will. of course it will be upsetting, but i'll get through it. because i can handle anything now.these past few months have been life and mind changing. i've learned so much from so many new people. i have some of the best friends now. i've grown SO much, and i'll continue that. i'm excited for the future, and that's new too. i'm excited to see what's to come, good and bad.

i am so greatful, so aware, so excited, and so fucking happy.

Helplessly hoping her harlequin hovers nearsby
Awaiting a word
Gasping at glimpses of gentle true spirit
he runs wishing he could fly
only to trip at the sound of good-bye

Wordlessly watching he waits by the window and wonders
at the empty place inside

Heartlessly helping himself to her bad dreams he worries
did he hear a good-bye or even

Hello

They are 1 person
They are too alone
They are 3 together
They are for each other

Stand by the stairway you'll see something certain to tell you
confusion has its cost

Love isn't lying its loose in a lady who lingers
saying she is lost

And choking on hello

They are 1 person
They are too alone
They are 3 together
They are for each other

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IF YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST,
I want to know some things about you. I
don't care if we've never talked,never liked each other, or if we
already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are
obviously on my list, so let me know with whom I am friends!

1. Your Middle Name:

2. Age:

3. Single or Taken:

4. Favorite Movie:

5. Favorite Song:

6. Favorite Band/Artist:

7. Dirty or Clean:

8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Do we know each other outside of LJ?

2. What is your philosophy on life?

3. Would you have my back in a fight?

4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?

5. What is your favorite memory of us?

6. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:

7. Can we get together and make a cake?

8. Do you think I'm a good person?

9. Would you drive across country with me?

10. If you could change anything about me, would you?

11. What do you wear to sleep?

12. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

13. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?

14. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?